Friday 27 November 2009

Killing the Buddha

This article by Sam Harris has got to be one of the best things I've ever read on Buddhism. It's also one of the most 'Buddhist' things I've ever read, despite it being written by someone who prefers to call himself an Atheist than a Buddhist. I also love the fact that it appeared in a Buddhist magazine, the Shambhala Sun.

Very, very interesting and insightful. I wish I'd written it!

http://www.shambhalasun.com/index.php?option=content&task=view&id=2903Itemid=247

Tuesday 24 November 2009

Clinging

...to this morning's pain au chocolat.




So for breakfast I went to the boulangerie and bought myself a nice fresh baguette and a pain au chocolat. I ate the baguette at home and, because I was running a little late, took the pain au chocolat to eat on the metro on the way to work.

Now I don't know if Buddhist folklore talks of deities sent by the heavens to test ordinary folks' compassion and wisdom, but it seemed like there were at least two of them on the metro wanting a bit of my snack!

First, a small child next to me was fixated on the pain au chocolat in that unselfconscious way that children stare. I stuck my tongue out and pulled a face or two, to no avail. She wanted the chocolate. Her mother eventually told her not to be rude, but I could still feel her eyes boring into me, willing the chocolatey goodness to slip out of my hands and into hers. Finally, she settled for a puppy-dog look to try to pull on my heart strings. I was on the point of giving in when the train arrived at their stop and they left. Phew.

Talking of puppy dogs, next to covet my breakfast was a small, stinky one of this species, who got on the metro with its owner, who also looked fairly small and stinky. I'm not a fan of dogs at the best of times, and when they're dribbling on the floor with food-induced lust I find them even less appealing. Its owner was distracted, talking on her mobile phone, so it was between the dog and me. A staring contest ensued. Another woman noticed the silent struggle between me and my canine admirer, smiled, and immediately took the dog's side, both of them batting their eyelashes and pouting. She said "Can't you give him just a little bit?" I said "well, it's got chocolate in, which isn't good for dogs, is it?", to which she replied "can't you find a bit without chocolate?" I couldn't really say no. Goodbye nice crunchy bit of my pain au chocolat!

I've got a hell of a long way to go before I live up to the ideal in that Buddhist story about the Buddha, in a former life, sacrificing his body to a mother lion to feed her cubs.

Monday 23 November 2009

Psychiatry and Buddhism

I'm looking forward to going to see mister psychiatrist tomorrow.

But I don't like the word "psychiatrist". It sounds so serious. Not like a psychologist or a therapist, which sound softer. I've always associated psychiatrists with big hairy illnesses like schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, anorexia, and psychologists or therapists with anxiety and depression, i.e. things that are perhaps more manageable and that are more common. I don't think my preconceptions are founded in any kind of reality or truth though. I know people with big hairy illnesses like schizophrenia and bipolar disorder who frequented therapists, and I know of people who went through a patch of depression and who went to see a shrink.

Anyway - the feeling I have at the moment is that it'll be a bit like going to the hairdressers, i.e. you pay someone money so that they ask you questions about yourself for an hour. The only thing is with the hairdressers at least you come out looking better.

No - I'm kidding. I think this psychiatric work I'm going to embark on may constitute an important part of my journey as a Buddhist, and above all as a person. I see many incredible similarities between psychology and Buddhism. This is something I'd like to write more about in the future.

A friend of mine in Paris sent me a message a few days ago saying "I think you're right to look for some kind of healing by following a spiritual path." My response was one of surprise, as I always thought the spiritual path was none other than healing itself.

Happiness in a French baguette

Today I got up at a reasonable time (9.30am is revolutionary for me, honestly), went for a slow walk to get a baguette (I am living in France, after all) and some breakfast stuff, came back and ate it, meditated for five short minutes, and now I feel great.

Could it be like this every day?

OK, I've got to remember that this sudden feeling of well-being is not permanent, but I'm gonna enjoy it while it lasts, I tell you.

Sunday 22 November 2009

My friends: Buddhas in disguise!

OK, so yesterday I felt like I was losing the plot (see blog post before this one).

I had a big rant and yelled (at the wall), cried a lot and wrote some angry and confused things on my blog and on the Buddhist internet forum I belong to.

I partly did this to elicit a response from people, particularly the Buddhists amongst my friends and acquaintances, to see what they'd say. I feel like a prize twat now for being so self-indulgent, but I guess it's done now.

And I got lots of responses.

Every single one of them was extremely nice and thoughtful and each person was more concerned in giving me some good advice based on my current situation and state of mind, rather than trying to defend Buddhism or advise me to go and live in a monastery or something.

I feel extremely grateful to those people, and I feel that this kind of genuine, honest, compassionate conversation is far more Dharma-esque and Buddhist than anyone who would ever quote a Buddhist scripture at me or tell me that I'm just deluded and that I should meditate more. Those things may be true, but saying something like that would just not be helpful right now.

So - thank you people, and thank you world.

I often think that close friends, parents, and even strangers from internet chat forums (!) can be far better teachers than Buddhist monks living across the other side of the globe with no idea of the problems faced by lay Buddhists in the western world.

Saturday 21 November 2009

sick of buddhism, REALLY REALLY REALLY sick of it.

I tell you what, I'm really, really, really sick of Buddhism. REALLY sick of it.


Here's what I've read recently. This is what makes me fucking miserable. This is why I'm depressed. This is why I spend hours in floods of tears.

Oh, sorry, of course, it's not these things that make me feel like this, it's my mind. Oh, well, thank you very much. Very helpful. Please just leave me alone.

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“From a Buddhist perspective, real Buddhism and not American Psychological Buddhism, then compassion for one's self is simply more of the same; ignorance.”
- oh, so compassion isn't any good now? right.

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All the Buddhist teachers I’ve read say that you don’t need to change your circumstances, that enlightenment is right here, right now. Etc etc etc.

So why are they all monks or nuns? Why, if enlightenment and happiness are available to people in their circumstances right here, right now, why have they all become monks and nuns?!

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I read this in an interview with Ajahn somebody or other, one of the Thai forest monks who aren't allowed to cook their own food, look at anything beautiful or sleep for more than 5 hours a night.

“Have you ever regretted becoming a monk?”
- he says that last year a friend came over to visit him and was telling him about how his old friends back home were getting on. Divorces, job losses, financial difficulties, disappointments. He said “no, I don’t regret for one minute becoming a monk.”

- so basically in order to not have disappointments and suffering in life, you have to become a monk. Buddhist teachings can say all they like. It's in the practitioners who philosophise and sermonise that the real worth of it is shown.

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Let's not forget the Buddhist teachers accused of rape, alcoholism, the ones that have/had numerous affairs with students, some abusive, some not. And I wouldn't want to leave out the ones who abandon their children at critical points in their lives, leave their parents in tears and suffering, in order to go and "benefit all living beings" by sitting on their arses in a Thai forest for days on end.

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I’ve got this obsession with becoming a Buddhist nun – how the hell am I supposed to know if it’s an OCD-type obsession or if it’s something I should actually go with.

If my instincts aren’t clear (see above) maybe I should think about it more rationally. Now is not a good time – I’ve not been studying Buddhism for very long, blah blah blah. But Pema Chodron hadn’t been studying it for very long before she became a nun. One year, in fact.

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The Buddha found that riches, wealth etc weren’t going to make him happy, so he abandoned them.

So Buddhism tells me that music, sport, friendship, food, sleeping, etc etc etc aren’t going to make me ultimately happy. Does that mean I should abandon them? Riiiiight.

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http://www.prairiewindzen.org/renunciation.html

so this guy says he was really confused about lay / monastic life. Says the same things as me. Then he became a monk as well. Great.

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probably the reason I’m “not ready” to renounce and to become a nun is that I’m just too full of attachments, delusions, conditionings etc. I’m just too spiritually immature, bless me, so I’ve got to give myself time. With, of course, the idea in mind that eventually I’ll free myself of music, friends, family, art, sunshine, food, cups of tea and whatever other external factors that distract me from the meaning of life. In the meantime, having been told that I’ve got to give myself time to rid myself of these delusions, how do you suggest that I go about getting on with life, enjoying these things? Or do you suggest I just put up with them until I’m free of them?….. what???
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All I ever wanted in life was a happy relationship, some good friends, a hobby or two and some children later on. no doubt this is just delusion, delusion that external factors such as partners and children will make me happy,so i should renounce them.

as one buddhist teacher (can'tremember who) said when describing her marriage and having her children before becoming a monastic, "Samsara beckoned" - ahh right, so having a marriage and children is just part of the cycle of worldly suffering...right... best become a nun then.

what the fuck is this about compassion? some of these things really really really hurt me...some of these things are said in such a cruel way. i suppose buddhists would tell me that ultimately it's compassionate cos it's making me see the reality of the impermanence of things. just leave me alone, please.
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Yeah, I'm depressed, ok. I'm going to see a shrink soon. I'll tell you how it goes. Something tells me this will be far more beneficial for me in coming out of this GODAWFUL state than any kind of Buddhist stories or "advice" telling me that the things I enjoy, the things that stop me from getting into this state in the first place, are ultimately pointless.

Wednesday 18 November 2009

Recurring inner dialogue


Little voice in head 1: I should meditate when I get up in the morning.
Little voice in head 2: I can’t be bothered.
Little voice in head 1: *guilt, guilt, guilt, guilt*
Little voice in head 2: Ahhh, you’re feeling guilty. That’s interesting.
Little voice in head 1: Bugger off.
Little voice in head 2: Perhaps you should learn to be more compassionate towards yourself.
Little voice in head 1: How should I do that?
Little voice in head 2: Perhaps a loving-kindness meditation.
Little voice in head 1: But I can’t be bothered to meditate.
Little voice in head 2: Oh, shut up.

Sunday 15 November 2009

Charter for Compassion




The principle of compassion lies at the heart of all religious, ethical and spiritual traditions, calling us always to treat all others as we wish to be treated ourselves. Compassion impels us to work tirelessly to alleviate the suffering of our fellow creatures, to dethrone ourselves from the centre of our world and put another there, and to honour the inviolable sanctity of every single human being, treating everybody, without exception, with absolute justice, equity and respect.

It is also necessary in both public and private life to refrain consistently and empathically from inflicting pain. To act or speak violently out of spite, chauvinism, or self-interest, to impoverish, exploit or deny basic rights to anybody, and to incite hatred by denigrating others—even our enemies—is a denial of our common humanity. We acknowledge that we have failed to live compassionately and that some have even increased the sum of human misery in the name of religion.

We therefore call upon all men and women ~ to restore compassion to the centre of morality and religion ~ to return to the ancient principle that any interpretation of scripture that breeds violence, hatred or disdain is illegitimate ~ to ensure that youth are given accurate and respectful information about other traditions, religions and cultures ~ to encourage a positive appreciation of cultural and religious diversity ~ to cultivate an informed empathy with the suffering of all human beings—even those regarded as enemies.

We urgently need to make compassion a clear, luminous and dynamic force in our polarized world. Rooted in a principled determination to transcend selfishness, compassion can break down political, dogmatic, ideological and religious boundaries. Born of our deep interdependence, compassion is essential to human relationships and to a fulfilled humanity. It is the path to enlightenment, and indispensible to the creation of a just economy and a peaceful global community.

To sign your name on the Charter for Compassion, go to the website: http://charterforcompassion.org/

Saturday 14 November 2009

Song : Freed from desire

As a music fan with an interest in Buddhism, I've begun to notice lately that there are a lot of songs that seem to have Buddhist sentiments in them. I'm gonna start posting them on here with the lyrics.
Here's the first: the 90s pop classic Freed From Desire, by Gala. '90s cheese in all its glory, but there's something quite wise about it! Enjoy :-)


Perhaps we should start singing Gala hits in our meditation classes instead of chanting...




My love has got no money He's got his strong beliefs
My love has got no power He's got his strong beliefs
My love has got no fame He's got his strong beliefs
My love has got no money He's got his strong beliefs
Want more and more
People just want more and more
Freedom and love
What he's looking for
Want more and more
People just want more and more
Freedom and love
What he's looking for
Freed from desire Mind and senses purified
Freed from desire Mind and senses purified
Freed from desire Mind and senses purified
Freed from desire
Nanana...
My love has got no money He's got his strong beliefs
My love has got no power He's got his strong beliefs
My love has got no fame He's got his strong beliefs
My love has got no money He's got his strong beliefs
Want more and more
People just want more and more
Freedom and love
What he's looking for
Want more and more
People just want more and more
Freedom and love
What he's looking for
Freed from desire Mind and senses purified
Freed from desire Mind and senses purified
Freed from desire Mind and senses purified
Freed from desire
Nanana...

Monday 9 November 2009

Liberté, égalité, fraternité




I reckon in a former life I was a French revolutionary. I absolutely love the French national motto “liberté, égalité, fraternité” (freedom, equality, brotherhood). What could be more Buddhist, and indeed more generally wise, than that? The phrase was coined during the French Revolution and granted, the revolution itself was a wee bit bloodier and more brutal than any Buddhist uprising that is likely to take place, but I somehow feel that the motivation and the underlying feeling were strangely similar to what Buddhist political ideologies there might be.

A mass of ordinary working people coming together to pursue the heartfelt cause of freedom and equality, overcoming the tyranny and dictatorship in their country and attempting to install an egalitarian system of government. It didn’t go exactly to plan, what with the beheadings, the blood and then Napoleon and all, but I think they were onto something important...

Wednesday 4 November 2009

Fourth reply to question about the worldly life

The answers are coming in thick and fast now! Thanks Shozen for your reply, and thanks Laurie for your opinion - it's all much appreciated, even if only to show me that different people have different interpretations and different ideas about renunciation, so it's really up to me to decide what I think, and what is best for me.

To read the question, click here.
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Dear Katy,

Firstly let me Apologise for the delay in answering your questions. I am always handy for a straight forward answer.

Quote:
"I'm 25, female, British and have been practicing Buddhist meditation for about a year as well as studying the Dharma and reading a lot about the topic."
The Buddha taught there are two kinds of teachings: (1) wrong teachings and (2) right teachings.
It the UK, monks such as Ajahn Sumedho who is also a westerner can generally offer the 'right teachings'

There are two kinds of renunciation: (1) renunciation based on an ideal or superstition; and (2) renunciation based on insight or dispassion.

When one decides to enter the monastery based on an ideal or superstition, the life of a renunciate is very difficult. But when one enters the monastery due to being dissatisfied with the options the world offers, the life of a renunciate is very easy. Concentration or meditation bliss comes easily.

You appear to have been drawn in by the popular Buddhist advertising. Unfortunately, this kind of Buddhist evangelism has grown in the world, contrary to the Lord Buddha's wisdom.

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"...just a few more lifetimes of misery. it's your choice!"
This is superstition. Rebirth was taught by the Buddha in a society that already held rebirth as a pre-existing belief to assist the worldly folks to do good and avoid self-harm. The Buddha did not teach people rebirth to motivate them to ordain. The Buddha taught the worldly person if they do good, they will be reborn in heaven or as a high human being. But to ordain because one believes in rebirth is wrong. Buddha taught faith in the higher Dhamma arises from the experience of suffering & unsatisfactoriness. If one ordains due to superstition, one will spend their monastic career teaching superstition because their mind will not penetrate that state which is free from suffering.

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"I'd appreciate any advice you have on these matters. I'm feeling really quite low about it all at the moment."
Sure Katie. My advice is to do two or three 10-day silent meditation retreats. If you realize this is not for you then the monastic life is not for you.

The Buddha offered so many beautiful & wise teachings for laypeople. If meditation does not bring your mind deep satisfaction & bliss, then I advise you study the Buddha's teachings for laypeople.

In brief, if you want a loving relationship, then that is the life for you, to pursue wisely & skilfully.

Kind regards
DDhatu
BuddhaForum.org

http://www.knowbuddhism.info/2009/11/renunciation-in-buddhism.html
Yours in Dhamma
Shozen

May you be filled with Loving Kindness,
May you be Well,
May you you be Peaceful and at Ease,
May you be Happy.

Third reply to question about the worldly life

Here is another reply to my question, which you can read by clicking here

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Hello Katy -

Thank you for letting me answer your question.

This worldly life is called "Samsara". It is the cycle of birth, ageing, sickness and death. It is a place full of suffering. Buddha Shakyamuni before he became Buddha Shakyamuni saw much suffering. So his first teaching "The First Turning of the wheel of Dharma" was about suffering - The Four Noble Truths. He taught that we are unhappy and we suffer because we do not see the world as it is. We grasp at things as permanent and unchanging that will by their very nature change. All things change. But we refuse to accept that and that leads to suffering.

Since this worldly life is full of changeable suffering, it is to be let go of. We should renounce it because all it will lead to is suffering. Instead, we should work on our minds and by working on our minds we will be able to find peace and calm. We will learn to see the world as it truly is and stop our own suffering. We will never have to suffer any more.

But as long as we cling and grasp at things like posessions and relationships, we will surely always suffer.

When I was considering whether or not to become Budddhist, I had the same thoughts as you. I loved music and pretty things and could not imagine living without them. I love Beethoven's Ninth the best too.

Buddha never said you could not enjoy things in this world. He simply said that they bring suffering. So if you like Beethoven's Ninth, continue to listen to it. But if you follow the Buddha, you will learn not to have attachment to it. It is the attachment that will cause you suffering. Let us say you love classical music a lot. Let us say it brings you much emotional pleasure - so much so you could not imagine living without it. What happens if one day, you begin to go deaf. Now you will suffer because you realize that you will have to live without something you are so attached to. However, instead when you listen to Classical music you can truly appreciate it and enjoy it but you create no attachement to it, then if you go deaf, you will not suffer. There will be nothing you lost.

Remember, Buddha taught everything so that we stop suffering.

Again, chasing after money means that you have an attachment to it and you might even hurt someone so that you get more money than the other person. Then not only are you suffering but you are causing suffering to others.

However, if you simply recognize that you must have money to live and puruse a career that does least damage to other sentient beings to get it then there is no harm. If you lose the money you have, you will not be unhappy because you know that the nature of things is impermanence. If you get a lot of money, you will not grasp at it because you know that grasping causes suffering.

But you must have money to live here in the West especially. If you have money to live where you are not always wondering where your next meal will come from then rejoice - that means you will have more time to practice the Dharma and improve yourself so you can become enlightened and if you are a Mahayana practitioner, you can then help others become enlightened.

Of course it is fine to love and be loved. Again, it is fine if you can learn to do it with no attachment. If your lover dies suddenly, you will not become depressed or commit suicide. If you can learn the tools to do this, then you will not suffer and because you are not suffering you will more easily be able to help others. Eventually of course, when you have reached a high enough state of understanding of the dharma teachings, then you will probably choose a celibate life and you will renounce the world because by doing that it will allow you time to practice the dharma more and the more time you practice the sooner you will become enlightened.

Buddha Shakyamuni taught 84 thousand teachings. Why did he teach so many? Each teaching he gave he tailored it for his specific audience.

He knew that each group or individual he taught was at a different stage in their emotional and spiritual development. So he said that just as a doctor would not prescribe the same medicine to two different people for two different illnesses, neither did he teach in the same way to everyone. He taught each person the lessons they needed to hear the way they needed to hear it.

So for some people like myself, living in a Buddhist Retreat Center and wishing to ordain as a Buddhist Nun at 51 years of age after working in professional theatre for 30 years, I am ready for a bit more renunciation than someone who has not had the life experiences I have.

You are in your prime - you are in the middle of experiencing the joys the world has to offer. So of course it would not seem right to you to just drop everything and renounce the world.

However - where all human beings are the same is that we all suffer. And Buddha did come to understand why we suffer and each of his 84 thousand teachings was trying as hard as he could to help each and every sentient being to be free of suffering.

We suffer because we grasp at things and hold on to them and expect them not to change or leave us. When the do change as they must because change is the law of the world, we suffer - unless we learn to train our minds to see things as they really are - dependant arisings - that they are created, they abide for a while and then they leave or die or disappear - like notes in a musical score.

Perhaps all Buddha was trying to get us to see was to enjoy the notes as they arise and then let them go. If we held on to the fist note of the Ode to Joy, there would be no second note. But we allow them to arise we enjoy them and let them pass away and allow other notes to arise.

We suffer because we cling to things of the past and are frightened or worried about things in the future - all we have is now - that is what the teachings say - that is what meditation teaches -

But instead we allow our egos to hold on to things in the past and don't want them to change - then we suffer when they do. If we slowly, slowly teach our egos to let go of grasping to the past or attaching to what might happen in the future then we will not suffer.

Then eventually, slowly, slowly, when we are ready we will begin to realize that this world of samsara - changeable suffering - is to be abandoned because it can only bring suffering - but only when we are ready should we renounce it - otherwise, if we renounce it before we are ready, we will suffer - and Buddha in his great compassion would never want anyone to suffer for any reason.

I hope some of that made sense.

Don't hesitate to ask any further questions if you wish.

And I hope you get to Sing Ode To Joy again soon as it is truly beautiful.

Namaste - Laurie

Monday 2 November 2009

Today's meditation

...was very pleasant.

I started off doing a body-scan / relaxation thing, then spent a while (read: probably about five minutes, though I wasn't timing it) asking myself how I felt, being aware of my mood and the physical sensations in my body. I've got a stinking cold, PMT and I'm coming off anti-depressants at the moment, but despite all that, my mood wasn't too grim at all...! Then I did a longer mindfulness of breathing meditation.

It's strange - when I meditate, all the ruminations of my thinking mind seem to disappear, immediately. It's like I fully give myself the chance to chill out a bit, and my mind goes "yes please! phew!" It's only afterwards, when I get up and stretch my legs, and go about my daily life, that thoughts and anxieties and ruminations come back with a vengeance.

It is also curious how on some days, I'm in a terrible mood but my meditation turns out to be great, and on other days, I'm feeling cheerful but meditation seems to bring out the crap that was lying dormant.

Today, though, I think the meditation had a positive effect on the rest of the day. Anxiety was at a reasonably low level, I felt more "present" and also more relaxed and confident in my interactions with people.

Let's see what tomorrow brings.

Second reply to question about the worldly life

Wow, this one is even longer! Thanks for your time and effort Joe - wow! :-)

To read the question, click here.

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Hello Katy,
Thank you for asking an excellent question. This is one that arises commonly in Buddhism and I think the issue is rarely addressed in a meaningful manner so forgive me while I give you a very lengthy response to it. Years ago I was attending a talk in a Buddhist monastery where the monk speaking said “all attachment is wrong, you need to free yourself from it,…. you must cut your hair and wear robes to be free of attachment”. After the talk I walked up to him and asked, “what about your attachment to bald heads and robes, must you give up this attachment”? He then proclaimed that he was not attached to it, that it is the sign of not being attached. I find this interesting Buddhist double speak. The idea of renunciation has resulted in a ‘spiritual’ competition’ among monks over the years. They have torn and sewn their garments to look ‘more renunciated’ than others. In my mind there’s a Monty Python skit here on ‘I’m more renunciated than you”. “Are not, I’ve got much less nothing than you do”, etc. I can hear their voices doing it. The idea of renunciation itself has become a material object and lost the point of it all. I am not saying there are not serious monks out there and that there is no validity to the idea of renunciation but you have to understand the point of it. If this is just a practice or ritual it has no meaning. If we truly realize that the things we desire and attach to will not ever bring us real fulfillment then we need not renunciate them because we have already broken through that illusion.
The illusion that wealth, sex, power or whatever will fulfill us is what drives us. In the story of the historical Buddha, Siddhartha realized that the hedonistic life was not going to fulfill him. It wasn’t that he renunciated it, it was that he knew existentially that it could not fulfill him. The mere act of renunciation without a profound realization of what is actually going on is pointless but to reach the point that you know beyond the shadow of any doubt that these things cannot fulfill you is priceless. In the midst of these things they can hold no attraction or sway over you, they have become actually meaningless. To just renunciate them causes an object in your mind that you stand ever opposed to and thus remains irresolvable. Look at the Catholic priests whom renunciate sex, are they free from the attachment to it? They must ever fight mentally to keep this renunciation and fight the self- created demons that arise from it. It is the renunciation of nature; how is it that nature is wrong here? Someone who has lived through it, has broken their attachment to it, and the illusion of it; is truly free and it holds no allure for them anymore. You don’t have to live through it to do this. When you realize about any one thing that it won’t fulfill you that will influence your view of all other attachments. When you inquire as to who it is that seeks fulfillment you will find these attachments dissolving. So what is most important is to realize where the root of your desire and attachments comes from and then you can move to resolve it.
I always go back to the early stories of Zen here. When Hui Ka went to Bodhidharma he was not told to renunciate anything, he was not told to meditate, he was not told to chant, leave his home or do prostrations but what he was told to do was to ‘show me your heart mind that I may pacify it” or present to me who it is that suffers. How can this be so ignored in today’s Buddhism? All of those other things come from the practice of Buddhism, the religion of Buddhism, that is carried on by others. They might all help but if you don’t do it with the right understanding, with the right drive and motivation, then it’s all practice without meaning. When Siddhartha gave it all up and sat under the tree he had been through renunciation and hedonism and neither worked. He knew he would starve himself to death if he kept up the asceticism. I believe William James once said, “ drink too much and see pink elephants, eat too little and see God”. In either case Siddhartha came to the point where he had to face himself in the moment and he sat under the Bodhi tree till this happened fully.
I know this is not “Zen” per say but I want to show you some writings from two prominent Indian philosophers on renunciation. Remember, awakening is awakening, Zen is just a word used to describe one method and has no real meaning in itself so because it’s not a Buddhist teacher does not mean that they are not talking about the exact same thing, they are:

From “Be as You Are” Ramana Maharishi

Q: The yogis say that one must renounce this world and go off into secluded jungles if one wishes to find the truth.
A: The life of action need not be renounced. If you meditate for an hour or two every day you can then carry on with your duties. If you meditate in the right manner then the current of mind induced will continue to flow even in the midst of your work. It is as though there were two ways of expressing the same idea; the same line which you take in meditation will be expressed in your activities.
Q: What will be the result of doing that?
A: As you go on you will find that your attitude towards people, events and objects gradually changes. Your actions will tend to follow your meditations of their own accord.
Q: Then you do not agree with the yogis?
A: A man should surrender the personal selfishness which binds him to this world. Giving up the false self is the true renunciation.
Q: How is it possible to become selfless while leading a life of worldly activity?
A: There is no conflict between work and wisdom.
Q: Do you mean that one can continue all the old activities in one's profession, for instance, and at the same time get enlightenment ?
A: Why not ? But in that case one will not think that it is the old personality which is doing the work, because one's consciousness will gradually become transferred until it is centered in that which is beyond the little self.
Q: If a person is engaged in work, there will be little time left for him to meditate.
A: Setting apart time for meditation is only for the merest spiritual novices. A man who is advancing will begin to enjoy the deeper beatitude whether he is at work or not. While his hands are in society, he keeps his head cool in solitude.
Q: Then you do not teach the way of yoga?

A: The yogi tries to drive his mind to the goal, as a cowherd drives a bull with a stick, but on this path the seeker coaxes the bull by holding out a handful of grass.
Q: How is that done?
A: You have to ask yourself the question `Who am I ?' This investigation will lead in the end to the discovery of something within you which is behind the mind. Solve that great problem and you will solve all other problems.

From David Godman in “Be as You Are”:

“This time-honoured structure sustained the common Indian belief that it was necessary to abandon one's family and take to a meditative life of celibate asceticism if one was seriously interested in realising the Self. Sri Ramana was asked about this belief many times but he always refused to endorse it. He consistently refused to give his devotees permission to give up their worldly responsibilities in favor of a meditative life and he always insisted that realization was equally accessible to everyone, irrespective of their physical circumstances. Instead of advising physical renunciation he told all his devotees that it would be spiritually more productive for them to discharge their normal duties and obligations with an awareness that there was no individual `I' performing or accepting responsibility for the acts which the body performed. He firmly believed that mental attitude had a greater bearing on spiritual progress than physical circumstances and he persistently discouraged all questioners who felt that a manipulation of their environment, however slight, would be spiritually beneficial. “

From Sri Nisargadatta “I am That”:

Q: Do you call it vairagya, relinquishment, renunciation?
M: There is nothing to renounce. Enough if you stop acquiring. To give you must have, and to have you must take. Better don't take. It is simpler than to practice renunciation, which leads to a dangerous form of 'spiritual' pride.

All this weighing, selecting, choosing, exchanging -- it is all shopping in some 'spiritual' market. What is your business there? What deal are you out to strike? When you are not out for business, what is the use of this endless anxiety of choice? Restlessness takes you nowhere. Something prevents you from seeing that there is nothing you need. Find it out and see its falseness. It is like having swallowed some poison and suffering from unquenchable craving for water. Instead of drinking beyond all measure, why not eliminate the poison and be free of this burning thirst?

And:

M: Mere physical renunciation is only a token of earnestness, but earnestness alone does not liberate. There must be understanding which comes with alert perceptivity, eager enquiry and deep investigation. You must work relentlessly for your salvation from sin and sorrow.
Q: What is sin?
M: All that binds you.



The desire to renunciate itself is an attachment and must be renunciated, right? So it creates its own set of problems. When my teacher, Masao Abe, left him home and went to the monastery the first thing he saw written above the gate was “To seek awakening itself is hell creating karma”. In other words that you seek to do this you create the problem.
I do think I have to address how this emphasis on renunciation comes up in Eastern thought because it is valid and important. When you think yourself to be the body and your thoughts you think those things that arise that please the body and mind will appease you. So mistaking ourselves to be that object of our thoughts, the thing we call ‘I’, we then pursue the objects of our desires. Ultimately these things will never fulfill us and many eventually destroy us. No matter how much we pursue the objects of our consciousness they cannot add to our fulfillment and only distract from it. The more we get, the more we want. We constantly delude ourselves that eventually the right amount of money, sex, power, relationships or whatever will fulfill us. We do not see our true self which can neither be added to or taken away from. That which is the root of our being is not affected by these pursuits. Sages of the past, having come to this as an existential conclusion then told their students that it is not till they realize how empty these pursuits are that they will be able to move forward. It became a practice rather than an existential fact. The students believed that these things don’t fulfill you and were misleading but they did not know it was the truth, they only believed it. It is the false identification of these desires as fulfilling that is the problem and not the desires themselves. There is no reason not to enjoy food, music, sex, relationships and other worldly pleasures so long as you truly realize that they and the collecting of them cannot truly fulfill you. I don’t mean understand that they can’t fulfill you, I mean profoundly and existentially know it. When this inquiry full bores into you then when engaged in those activities it will drive you to see who it is that is engaged in those activities. Nature lives fully engaging in these activities; there is nothing fundamentally wrong with them.


There is an old curse that goes, “ I hope you get everything you want”. Now, why is that such a curse? Because you realize you are still not fulfilled and cannot be fulfilled, it causes despair. It is not ‘you’ that becomes fulfilled but the overcoming of you, the profound and existential renunciation of the self that leads to true fulfillment. You as you now know yourself to be is what stands in the way of awakening.



The idea of a so-called spiritual life and a worldly life is just a construct of the mind. There are not two such separate lives that exist in distinction from one another just as there is not a separate self and true-self, this is all an illusion created by the ego. The root is always there, before birth and after death, you cannot be apart from it. In the religious world this is a dualism maintained by those who want ‘spiritual’ standing and rank. Where is there this delineation in nature? Can two such opposing worlds exist in the idea of Buddhist non-dualism? Don’t worry about such things. Let those who are attached to their non-attachment, robes and bowls, tend to such things if it makes them happy. Only you can inquire into your own self nature.

Let me make another point about the idea of renunciation. Are the poor in Dafur and throughout the rest of the world better off because they have nothing? Are they more spiritually aware and fulfilled since they have no clothes, food or shelter? They are not worldly at all and yet this is a desired state preached by many and to what ends. They have nothing to renunciate so what would one of these Buddhists tell them to renunciate? The one thing they have, that we all have, is the attachment to the idea of our self, the ego. Because they have nothing material does not mean that this relationship has changed at all, though it may. It is your relationship and identity with these things that matters and not the practice itself.

I cannot tell you to renunciate anything but what I can ask you to do is to seek who you are. If you pursue this you won’t need to renunciate anything because you will realize how fruitless those pursuits are, they will lose their meaning to you. When you love, ask who it is that loves and when you suffer ask who it is that suffers. Who is the other person that you love and ultimately who is it that was born and will die? It is not till you get to the root of your own self nature that you will answer these questions. There is no reason you cannot do this in every day life. In the ox-herding pictures of Zen the last picture is ‘Returning to the Market Place”, in other words, being in the world.
I know this was wordy but I hope it helps you.
Take care,
Joe

Sunday 1 November 2009

Reply to question about the worldly life

Here is the first response I received to my question on AllExperts.

To read the question, click here.

I'm really amazed and grateful that he put so much effort into giving this lengthy reply:

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Dear Katy Yelland,

I appreciate your question and thank you for the opportunity to answer it. Your question is well-founded and deals with many things. I hope that I am able to address them all in my response.

Let me first start off with a metaphor. Imagine that you like to play a sport (take your pick - baseball, softball, basketball, cricket, soccer (football) or any other). What are the different levels that can be played?

a.Recreational –
At this level, you will play only when the desire arises AND the situation allows. You will only play when you are not working, not doing chores, and out and about with others. You will only play if you want to and feel like it. You will probably not play too long and play just enough to make you feel happy.

b.Exercise –
At this level, you will play just enough to complete a specific goal, that is, to exercise. Sometimes you will want to, sometimes you won't. However, even when you don’t feel like it, you will continue to do so, since you set a goal and that is to exercise. When you play, you will play not for the sport itself, but for the goal of the sport (exercise or fitness).

c.Team or Group play for fun –
At this level, you will find others who share your love for this sport. You will visit them often and make friends with these people. You will sacrifice some of your time to this sport and enjoy it as you do it. The many people you will play with have various skill levels, but you will all share a common above average love for this sport that others in the world might not share.

At this level, you will also compare your skill to others. When you see others who are not as good as you, you might help them get better. If you see others who are better than you, you might learn from them to make yourself better. All in all, you all help each other progress in your skill.

d.Competitive Play –
At this level, you will dedicate much of your time to training and preparing for your matches and competitions. It will permeate into much of your daily activities and thoughts. As you work, you will think of your sport. As you sleep, you will dream of your sport. Everything you do, will in some way shape or form affect your sport.

At this level, you will play often and with rigor. While not playing, you will refrain from things that would be harmful to your play. For example, if you are serious about playing your sport, you might stay away from such harmful things such as cigarettes, alcohol or drugs. You will be serious about your sport and dedicate much of your time to your sport

e.High Level Competitive Play (Olympics?) –
At this level, you will no longer work in anything other than your sport. Your sport has become the most important thing in your life. You sacrifice partying, love, family, friends and everything in order to become the ULTIMATE at your sport. You feel that achieving the ultimate goal is the only thing worth doing in your life. You live, sleep and breathe your sport. Everything you do is training for your sport. You will not be happy until you completely achieve your goal.

Now, Buddhism works in the same way as these sports. Renunciation is merely the level at which you practice Buddhism (sport).

a.Recreational practice
At this level, you might read some books about Buddhism, meditate sometimes and go to temples. However, you do not feel Buddhism is the most important thing in your life. You only think about Buddhism when you feel like it. However, you find other things in life more important.

At this level, you don’t know why you meditate, what karma means and how it affects your life. Life is suffering at times, but it is bearable. You don’t have to renounce anything nor sacrifice any significant amount of time in order to practice Buddhism.
As a result, you will feel good about practicing when you do, but not really see any major significant results in your life.

b.As spiritual exercise
At this level, you feel like you need spirituality in your life. Therefore you turn towards meditation. When you meditate, it makes you feel better about yourself. Therefore, whenever you feel bad about yourself, you will find some time to meditate.

At this level, you will also not know why you meditate or practice Buddhism. You will not understand karma and how it affects your life. You will not have to sacrifice much to practice either. However, you will have to occasionally sacrifice some time for your practice.
As a result, every time you practice, you will feel better. However, when you don’t do it, you won’t feel better.

c.Practicing with a group
At this level, you feel somewhat serious about your practice. While you still want to live in this world and have a family, fall in love, listen to Beethoven and sing in choirs. However, you begin to feel your suffering as problematic and worthy of attention. You learn to see how your suffering comes from your perceptions, but are not able to tackle all of them yet. You slowly progress and find that your life gets better.

At this level, you will know that meditation will lead to focus and contemplation will lead to finding the cause of your suffering. You will vaguely understand karma and see how it operates in your daily life. You will be willing to spend large amounts of time practicing, while not neglecting your duties.

As a result, each time you go to practice with a group, you will come home a better person. However, the longer the period of time between practice, the sooner you revert back to your old self.

d.Dedicated practice
At this level, you are very serious about your practice. You spend as much time as possible practicing. You still work and have activities and responsibilities, but all other time is for practice. Even while you are working, doing activities or taking care of responsibilities, you begin to notice that practice can be done in your daily life. When problems arise, you tackle them immediately and firmly. You progress firmly in your practice and truly become one with the world.

At this level, you will know that meditation itself will not solve your problems. You will know that you need to focus and contemplate in order to find the cause of your suffering. Once you find the cause of your suffering, you will develop techniques on how to destroy those causes.

As a result, you are happy to have certain problems develop since that means you now have something to destroy. Each time you destroy a problem you are that much more a better person. People around you notice a definite change in you and ask you what you have done. There is no reverting back to your old self since you have destroyed the cause of your suffering.

e.Ordination
At this level, you realize the real purpose of life is to see life as suffering and escape the rounds of rebirth. You ordain and practice as much as you can in whatever time you have left.

“What is the real difference between the "worldly" life and the "spiritual" life? Most things I read seem to regard the so-called "worldly" life with contempt. What is this worldly life?”

The worldly life is what the life you are living, the life I am living and the life everyone is living. The spiritual life is the life of understanding you develop as you journey through the worldly life. In the worldly life, the things you do, the money you make, the things you obtain stay with the world when you die, however, in the spiritual life, the things you understand, the perceptions you develop, these things go with you after you die.

As for all the examples and questions you asked, (money, Beethoven, choirs, love…) some of these are worldly some of these are spiritual. It is often very hard to separate each one into different groups. However, one thing I want to point out is that just because the world does it, the world encourages it, or it feels right, doesn’t always make it right. Some quick examples are:
1. The world used to think the world was flat
2. The world used to think that having slaves was ok (some people still do)
3. The world thinks killing is sometimes justified
4. The world often thinks women are not as valuable as men
5. Some people in the world like to do drugs, drink alcohol and fight because it feels
good to them

So, as you see, not all things the world encourages, teaches, sets as laws or even do can be considered right.

There are many clarifications I can make on each of the points you asked, but that might end up being a 20 page response. I would like to offer the above as a preliminary over simplification.

If you would like more clarification on how to practice or for me to address any particular topic in detail, please feel free to ask a follow up question.

I hope I have answered your main question.

Sincerely,

Phra Anandapanyo

Phra Anandapanyo
San Francisco, Ca
"Problems are created by us, therefore must be fixed by us."

Buddhist qualities

I’ve noticed some really distinctive qualities in the Buddhists I’ve met so far:


1. All of them have a very calm way of behaving and speaking.


2. Most of them seem genuinely kind people. Many take an interest in me and my life, asking questions about my family and job and friends and so on. They do so in a careful way, and none of them are the type of person to go on one of those train-of-thought monologues about their own life or what they did that day. Because so much interest is taken in me, I sometimes end up feeling silly for talking about myself so much!


3. A curious quality I notice in some of the more experienced Buddhists I meet or observe is a way of looking you in the eye and holding your gaze for longer than most people do. I don’t know why this is. The person in question is perhaps generally calm and relaxed (see point 1), and therefore less fidgety and anxious than most.


4. An extension of number 3, something that I have experienced with one or two experienced Buddhists, is the impression that they can see right through me. That my outer personality shell of chatter, humour etc is laughably transparent and that the real stuff, the real feelings, anxieties, obsessions and all, are on display for everyone to see. I had this feeling a few weeks ago when I met a woman who has been involved in Buddhism for many years, occupies a senior position in the Buddhist order she belongs to, and is an experienced meditator. She impressed me and intimidated me by her presence. I know a non-Buddhist or two who have the same effect on me. There’s a highly intelligent, self-assured (though not arrogant) aura surrounding these people which makes me feel completely frivolous in comparison. I think that says as much about my own neuroses than it does about the people in question.


Anyway, I asked this woman a question about relationships and families in Buddhism and whether these things are just too worldly to be advisable. She said some things about the Buddhist perspective and then told me she was married and had two children. I asked her how old her children were. The oldest is 25. I told her that I am also 25 and she smiled. We talked for a minute or two about our own families. We had a small moment of human connection, which actually felt more important and powerful to me than her original answer to my question, which I have since forgotten.